11 Days Later. Some Minor Changes.

I wrote that last post 11 days ago. Since then I have made a few small changes, but not the schedule I had written and tried to achieve.

School started yesterday. I made a big pot of (vegan) butternut squash soup on Sunday. I had that for breakfast the last 2 days with a smoothie as well. I try to steer clear of sweet things for breakfast. They just rev up my metabolism and then I am starving all morning. I packed my lunch the last two days as well. It's a start right?

I ran to Target and picked up some hand weights - I haven't seen my old ones since the move. I am going to work out tonight. No excuses. I will walk in the morning as well. No excuses.

As for the wine, I haven't given up my weekday glasses of wine just yet. Baby steps I guess.

Chest Pains. No Really. Sharp Stabbing Chest Pains

Friday, August 05, 2011

I am sitting here in my office working and actually just had some sharp pains in my chest. Not the heartburn kind either. Actual sharp pains.

This is wrong. I know better. I was the poster child for exercise and healthy eating. What is wrong with me? I know what’s wrong. I am stressed and depressed.

I don’t lack the time. I say I do. I play that “busy full-time working Mom” card so easily. I am better than this. I deserve to be happy, to feel happy and to pass that happiness along to my son and my husband.

Lately, this is my typical day:

5:00am -- Wake Up. Check my phone and look at Facebook and Twitter

5:30am -- Actually get out of bed. Shower, make lunch for my son. Get ready for work.

6:15am -- Leave for work.

7:00am -- Get to work and kick myself for not packing breakfast or lunch.

7:30am -- Go get coffee and either a muffin or junk from the vending machine.

11:30am -- Lunch – go get some type of sandwich

3:30pm -- Leave work and go pick up my son

4:30pm -- Get home and think about what to make for dinner

5:00pm -- 1^st glass of wine and start cooking

5:30pm -- By now I am on my 2^nd or 3^rd glass of wine and eating dinner

6:00pm -- Clean up the kitchen

6:30pm -- Either playing pool or lounging around in front of the TV or the computer

7:30pm -- Get my son in the tub and ready for bed

8:30pm -- My son is in bed and I go to bed and watch TV and then fall asleep only to repeat the same day all over again tomorrow.

I have always had low blood pressure, took no medication, eat well and exercise sporadically. I have always enjoyed my wine and some treats here and there. But that balance is gone. I am a mess. As I sit here, I can feel my heart beating and actually feel like my heart is racing.

Everything hurts. This has got to end. I need a plan. Here’s what I’m thinking.

5:00am -- Wake Up. Walk for 20-30 minutes

5:30am -- Shower, make lunch for me AND my son and pack his bag. Get ready for work.

6:15am -- Leave for work.

7:00am -- Get to work and dig in.  

11:30am -- Eat Lunch and take a 15 minute walk

3:30pm -- Leave work and go pick up my son

4:30pm -- Get home and Do 20 min of weight lifting

5:30pm -- Make Dinner

6:30pm -- Clean up the kitchen

7:00pm -- Play pool / Spend time with family / Get ready for tomorrow

7:30pm -- Get my son in the tub and ready for bed

8:30pm -- My son is in bed and I go to bed

Those are NOT huge changes. Why are they so hard to do though??

Here are my daily goals:

• Drink Water throughout the day
• Wine is only for Friday and Saturday nights
• Food is mostly vegan with some fish and occasional cheese on pizza
• Always eat or pack breakfast
• Always pack lunch – salad and soup or something vegetable-based
• Dark leafy greens at least once per day
• No coffee or soda
• At least 30 minutes of exercise per day
• Journal daily

Think I can do it?